“the truth will set you free”
this is one of the most overused lines ever, but it is the most true. this past year has been filled with transition and A-L-O-T of learning curves for me. i’ve learned that it’s hard for people to understand your truth and your NOW if you can’t be completely honest. I’ve learned that honesty and transparency is difficult, but with God it works. Blogging has been difficult. I USED to want a self-named blog. I USED to want ALOT…but this year, God, this blog, my relationship and just in everything, I’ve learned that God is not positioning you if you can’t be transparent. I think transparency has always been difficult for me, honestly. The only person who REALLY ALWAYS knew how I was feeling and what I was feeling was Garrett and even then, there was so much I bottled up. There were so many times I went to God and I asked for a voice, I asked for a voice because I felt silenced, ALL THE TIME. I was afraid to face my adversity because I felt as if my issues weren’t IMPORTANT enough. I always asked myself, why should I be upset or frustrated when there are people starving and there are people who are being emotionally, physically, and sexually abused? I remember having this exact conversation with G. I said, I don’t pray to ask for anything, but clarity or to thank God because I don’t feel like my requests are fair or valid because many have it worst, but he immediately shut me down and asked what my relationship with God was like. That was a tough question. I pray, I worship, I do what I feel like I ‘need’ to do, but sometimes I feel lost and I hide that from God because I want Him to focus on OTHER PEOPLE. I’ve been very selfish, When I first found my voice, before I found Christ it was ALL about ME and I live everyday trying to redeem myself, trying to right my wrongs, but after months of the same conversation about God with Him and with Garrett, I’ve learned that as long as I am TRANSPARENT, as long as I can admit my sins, I can admit my greed, God will forgive and position me for my anointing.
Verse of the Week: “All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be competent, equipped for every good work.” — 2 Timothy 3:16-17
Weekly Challenge: Be HONEST. Be TRUTHFUL. Admit something to God that you’ve been carrying. He already knows and He will NOT judge you, but if you admit your pain, He will guide you to strength and position you for your anointing.
Sound of the Week: Hillsong Worship — Grace to Grace